hody ho

"what was i thinking when I let go of you"- wilco Don't tell people about love. Don't tell them about the nights- you know the ones with the special kind of darkness Don't breath a word about that darkness, the kind that hasn't been felt before Speak not of the rage that comes as the small bird sings Ho do hody ho Don't "say" shit. Let them "feel" the love Let them feel everything Let them keep feeling the things that can not be described begining with your kindnesss

men in black hats the televison show you know what will happen nexb as the helicopter circles my nieghborhood. here we go get lost in fansty as the outside world keep going with its helicotors and crime and cops as we cope fiction take us away far away

Yo Art is wack

I
So do art for yourself

There
there
its not so bad,

not so bad at all.

and all critics and and fans
think they are right.

but who is to say.
what do they know

huh

whos right.
who will look at Gernuica and leave unimpressed
as a parent
sees thier childs first
crayon drawing
of mother
and chlid
and place
it there on the  fridge
while

Michelangeos;s Madana is is thousands of miles away
protected by security
and unavailble for public viewing
after
the musuem closes.

Dad will get up late at night
for milk
or a snack
see the art on the fridge.

and enjoy the treat.


II
remember that story
kids from castlemont
laughing at the screen
as the sadest moment
is reenacted
then thepress
the govener
the school gets a make over but not
thier minds.

He tells them he got kicked out of a movie
once.

I have never seen anyone get kicked out of a
movie.
ever.

all i can think I need to find that theater
the one that kicks people out
fuck-
that theater is the real news...

I.
the wild men of pearl jam-
pure engery

in the hearts
of the children listenting

as the
lead singer climbs
the rafters
jumps to his
death,
(a heroic death)
better that than
a kiss from a shotgun.

The singer jumps
the children catch him-
Alive

II.
 Kurt said
your band wasn't


MTV awards
there he was
possessed-
possessed

arms raised in a V
and the dead lay in pools of maroon below"

I still want that brown corduroy
jacket

that one song

there is that one song that i
keep hearing

it is sincere in its love
i want to share it with you
but its such sad song

it makes me happy

things have been rough

things have been rough around
here.

they have not been the kindest.

they have not been compassionate.

they lack human warmth or a mothers love.

In the schools there is a saying.

You get what you get and don't get upset.

okay I won't get upset.

But depression only leads
to not getting upset about anything
including
the end of breathing

I will breath and I will get upset.

When it get better I will hug someone.

I'm watching a movie
about giants

all teh physics have explained that
gravity makes it impossible
for giants to stand

Fuck that

yeah fuck gravity

I like my gaints
doing giant bullshit

break shit gaints
break shit

trainy

Chuga Chuga
Boom Boom

people all over the world
join hands.

Race is still an issue
some denying  all relevance to the politics of today
some finding conflict in it, looking for a fight

one looking to be right

but right about what
about who
about what

and
the politics of 
race is not on any
track going in one direction

it is a million diffrent events
happening individually
going in all directions

Chuga Chuga
Boom Boom

love will save us all
just close your eyes you'll see

My life is going to hell
and I blame you as if you knew what you doing.

You didn't,
which was the problem.

My life is gioing to hell
but i wouldn't you suffer with me.

Your insane and you made me insane.

togerhter we are insane.

You know how to survive and i don't
together we make a whole.

but my life is gionig to hell
and I can't blame you

IMA diggin
 you see,,
ina deep hole
dark hole
so you don't see

I need you,
whethere its god in a females
vigina

or god in her
kindness

a mother's love
not the
love my mother gave me.

Ima diggin a hole
like a grave,
where the last of my hope
is to be buried.

I love you self.
Help me out this hole i am in
when I look up I see light.

Ina hole
looking for this buired tresuarse.

Ina hole
half way to china,
with so many people maybe theyll have someone trying to find me too.